It's something, I guess. [ a last meal? one last moment of friendship? he doesn't know. he doesn't really want to see lavi on the stage tomorrow, no matter who winds up facing him down. ] I didn't forget how to make food, so I'll do what I can with it while I have it.
[ moving to settle in because he's not going anywhere for a bit. ]
... I dove right in, when I talked to Bucky about why he did it. I didn't really want to do that with you. Wanted to actually give you something instead of just demanding answers.
[He glances around as if searching for a clock. I have no idea if there is one, but there probably isn't.]
...We've still got time. [barely any] I can start us off by telling you what happened, yeah?
Cosmos and I woke up at the same time. I never planned on killing him that night or the days before, and he said as much to me. 'Course, I was still paranoid as hell that he might try anyway, so I said we should leave the theater. Didn't wanna get attacked where all you guys were sleeping in the dark, and I was still coughing pretty badly.
they don't - really have that much time. but he doesn't say that, since it's better to do what they can with the time they have. ]
The second half makes sense. [ for lavi - and probably for nameless, too. to leave so that unrelated people aren't put at risk. ] The first half doesn't, like the rules have suddenly changed or been updated from what we knew before. What happened?
I can only tell you what I thought. Or what I didn't think, because I sure as hell wasn't planning on killing anyone. And not because I'm a kind person -- I thought about the offer and realized it wasn't gonna help me any.
[so why was he picked? why did he wake up?]
...I think that's why the octopus was there. To force us into doing something. It was already in Cosmos's form when I saw it, like it'd been waiting for us the entire time. [he lets out a breath] It's like it knew that if it'd been someone I cared about, that I still would have attacked it.
Cosmos didn't. He thought it was someone from home.
[ STOP maybe in another situation he might. but, no, he's - lavi doesn't deserve that, actually.
a slow, angry inhale through his teeth. there's no judgment for him having considered the offer, no counterpoint that he's a good person in the end, nothing like that. because, in the end? they're all human. ]
So, now we have an extra factor in this entire shitshow. If we aren't willing to kill, then this place, in some way, will help force our hand into it. [ thin the numbers and stir the pot. a party to die for, whether by their own choice or not. ] Did it attack him..?
[he says this part more slowly than before, like it's painful for him to admit.]
...I fucked up. I thought... no matter what it was, that we'd deal with it somehow. But the siren's song it drank got us to follow it all the way back to the aquarium.
[ this is human, too, he thinks. we'd deal with it somehow. ]
It just - drank it? [ of its own accord? fantastic. he hates this, actually. if he saw this in a movie or read it in a book, he might have laughed - it's ludicrous.
[ glad it wasn't vore, but hate that kon wouldn't have been that surprised considering amatsuki.
except his face twists a little at the last note, and he reaches to curl his fingers around lavi's wrist. support, encouragement to continue, but not absolution. the only person that can give him that is lavi, or nameless himself. ]
[he looks down at the fingers on his wrist, as if surprised at the contact.]
...It killed him instantly. Octopus grabbed on, so I cut off its arm. [sorry about the arm crimes] I dragged Cosmos out and tried to resuscitate him. I was full out panicking.
[and he also forgot cpr bc i thought it'd be funny]
...Octopus ran and I chased it all the way to the onsen, where I finally killed it.
He doesn't pull his hand away though. Just sits and thinks about the warmth of Kon's hand, and the difference of this night compared to the one before.]
...Not right away. I had enough time to go back to my room to put my hammer back, and to go to Cosmos' room. I wanted to get his journal.
I brought it back to the aquarium and left it there -- dropped it, actually. Pages got stained so I rewrote most of it. ...It was the only thing I could think of doing for him at the moment.
[ it's about to be vore crimes now because i'm gonna eat YOU. YAYWON!!!!
his thumb presses into lavi's pulse, like it can ground either one of them. maybe some part of him wants to think it'll keep him there, but he's too logical, too realistic, to believe in that. ]
... you tried. [ failed, but still tried. doesn't erase that it happened, but lavi still tried. ] It was something for him.
[his pulse is steady and slow, like saying all of this is lifting some kind of weight, if even for moment.]
...Can I ask ya for a favor?
[he doesn't expect kon to turn him down. is that manipulative of him? even though he's not trying to use this moment for it, and yet... well, it all comes down to his choices. and this is one he'll make now.]
[ but he squeezes. no, kon probably won't turn it down - just because he's the kind of person that sees it through. the kind of person that takes the weight and the problem and tries to figure it out so that someone else won't have to. ]
I dunno what your opinion on graves are, but... I think Cosmos should have something more than just that beek. I asked Uri too, if she could think of something for him.
Think we can probably figure something out. Even if it's just a memorial of some kind. We've got his journal to work with, brief as it is, and the memories made with the people here.
[ it was. but what if it wasn't, huh? kon'd still say yes even if he asked him to execute him.
he makes a little face at seeing the golem proffered to him, reluctantly letting go of lavi so that he can take it. it makes this situation feel more... cemented. ]
Giving me a lot to take care of. [ rubbing his thumb on the top of it, before he slips it carefully into his hoodie pocket. ] I'll clean him up. You really slacked on his maintenance, huh.
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wheeZES
[ moving to settle in because he's not going anywhere for a bit. ]
... I dove right in, when I talked to Bucky about why he did it. I didn't really want to do that with you. Wanted to actually give you something instead of just demanding answers.
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Hey, it wouldn't have bothered me if you had. I gave you a free pass to demand.
[he gave everyone free passes, but like he knew Kon would come? He wasn't sure about the others. also,]
-- This is really good.
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I'm gonna. But kind of offset by the fact that I like you, moron, and I sure didn't like him.
[ kon has the same insatiable desire for knowledge, and he does care about lavi. it's a one-two punch. ]
Of course it is. But I'm glad.
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...Thanks. I like ya too.
[strange bi panic feelings aside, he does...]
You're the first person I talked to here, y'know. I had a feeling from the start that you were gonna be interesting.
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Kinda thought the same. Like there'd be a lot to learn - stories to share, in a lot of ways.
[ lavi is interesting. he likes his company, likes to tease and talk to him alike.
he doesn't want to say goodbye. ]
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...We've still got time. [barely any] I can start us off by telling you what happened, yeah?
Cosmos and I woke up at the same time. I never planned on killing him that night or the days before, and he said as much to me. 'Course, I was still paranoid as hell that he might try anyway, so I said we should leave the theater. Didn't wanna get attacked where all you guys were sleeping in the dark, and I was still coughing pretty badly.
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they don't - really have that much time. but he doesn't say that, since it's better to do what they can with the time they have. ]
The second half makes sense. [ for lavi - and probably for nameless, too. to leave so that unrelated people aren't put at risk. ] The first half doesn't, like the rules have suddenly changed or been updated from what we knew before. What happened?
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I can only tell you what I thought. Or what I didn't think, because I sure as hell wasn't planning on killing anyone. And not because I'm a kind person -- I thought about the offer and realized it wasn't gonna help me any.
[so why was he picked? why did he wake up?]
...I think that's why the octopus was there. To force us into doing something. It was already in Cosmos's form when I saw it, like it'd been waiting for us the entire time. [he lets out a breath] It's like it knew that if it'd been someone I cared about, that I still would have attacked it.
Cosmos didn't. He thought it was someone from home.
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a slow, angry inhale through his teeth. there's no judgment for him having considered the offer, no counterpoint that he's a good person in the end, nothing like that. because, in the end? they're all human. ]
So, now we have an extra factor in this entire shitshow. If we aren't willing to kill, then this place, in some way, will help force our hand into it. [ thin the numbers and stir the pot. a party to die for, whether by their own choice or not. ] Did it attack him..?
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[he says this part more slowly than before, like it's painful for him to admit.]
...I fucked up. I thought... no matter what it was, that we'd deal with it somehow. But the siren's song it drank got us to follow it all the way back to the aquarium.
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It just - drank it? [ of its own accord? fantastic. he hates this, actually. if he saw this in a movie or read it in a book, he might have laughed - it's ludicrous.
not really laughing, now. ]
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Yeah........ I saw the sucker for split second, but by then it was too late. That was the smudge on the glass.
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Great. I - really hate that, actually. [ god, fuck. okay. ] And with the drink, it compelled the two of you back to the aquarium.
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[this could have been vore]
But we both snapped out if when it attacked. That's when I broke the tank, so we could get out. And then... I hit Cosmos while we were fighting.
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except his face twists a little at the last note, and he reaches to curl his fingers around lavi's wrist. support, encouragement to continue, but not absolution. the only person that can give him that is lavi, or nameless himself. ]
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...It killed him instantly. Octopus grabbed on, so I cut off its arm. [sorry about the arm crimes] I dragged Cosmos out and tried to resuscitate him. I was full out panicking.
[and he also forgot cpr bc i thought it'd be funny]
...Octopus ran and I chased it all the way to the onsen, where I finally killed it.
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it's like some hellish cosmic force finds all of this funny. probably does. probably satan, watching and waiting for the party. ]
Did you forget, after you killed it? [ what an unkindness, to grieve and then get slapped in the face when you remember the blood's on your hand. ]
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He doesn't pull his hand away though. Just sits and thinks about the warmth of Kon's hand, and the difference of this night compared to the one before.]
...Not right away. I had enough time to go back to my room to put my hammer back, and to go to Cosmos' room. I wanted to get his journal.
I brought it back to the aquarium and left it there -- dropped it, actually. Pages got stained so I rewrote most of it. ...It was the only thing I could think of doing for him at the moment.
[goofy grabs everyone MY HANDWRITING CHECK]
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his thumb presses into lavi's pulse, like it can ground either one of them. maybe some part of him wants to think it'll keep him there, but he's too logical, too realistic, to believe in that. ]
... you tried. [ failed, but still tried. doesn't erase that it happened, but lavi still tried. ] It was something for him.
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...Can I ask ya for a favor?
[he doesn't expect kon to turn him down. is that manipulative of him? even though he's not trying to use this moment for it, and yet... well, it all comes down to his choices. and this is one he'll make now.]
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[ but he squeezes. no, kon probably won't turn it down - just because he's the kind of person that sees it through. the kind of person that takes the weight and the problem and tries to figure it out so that someone else won't have to. ]
Sure, Lavi.
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It's not that bad, promise. [WELL
anyway he continues,]
I dunno what your opinion on graves are, but... I think Cosmos should have something more than just that beek. I asked Uri too, if she could think of something for him.
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Think we can probably figure something out. Even if it's just a memorial of some kind. We've got his journal to work with, brief as it is, and the memories made with the people here.
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...Thanks. [it doesn't help at all, he thinks. it doesn't lessen the weight or make him hate himself any less,
but it's proper, he thinks. and it might help the others.]
Right -- [he reaches into his pocket and pulls out his golem, turned off.] Here. Figured you'd be the best guy to look after him.
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he makes a little face at seeing the golem proffered to him, reluctantly letting go of lavi so that he can take it. it makes this situation feel more... cemented. ]
Giving me a lot to take care of. [ rubbing his thumb on the top of it, before he slips it carefully into his hoodie pocket. ] I'll clean him up. You really slacked on his maintenance, huh.
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